I'm feeling kinda cranky today... well tonight that is. Maybe it's because I'm tired and stressed out.  I have to find new insurance for my car by next week and since I got those last two speeding tickets, I'm basically a high risk driver and my rates are freaking high!  I also have to move my bookcases, computer desk and computer tomorrow and on top of that I have to figure out where to store the rest of my crap. I know that I have another month to get that done but I'm a procrastinator and if I wait too long like finding new insurance, then I'm screwed...  I annoyed with everything too.  I wanted to watch cartoons but Jon tells me that he doesn't and that I can watch it on the laptop so that made me even more cranky. I should probably take a nap but if I do I'll never wake up and I'm supposed to meet people at Old Chicago at 11pm.  This just sucks!

Okay... I'm new at this. I will try to write but I can't guarantee it. It's snowing today so I don't feel like going anywhere so I might just crawl into bed early with a good book and maybe a movie... I mean I do love snow but I just hate to drive in them.

HANGING ON

My thoughts all clustered
Making insanity my only choice
Colliding with one another
Like a tidal wave with all its force

All that I use to see clearly
Now blocked by my own psychotic mind
As it is being used merely
For the passage of time

With these thoughts intact
My mind fought itself
Trying to make sense
Of what was real in my memory
And what was simply killing me.


This is just how I feel sometimes but I'm learning to get past it. Once I can pay off my student loans and go back to school, it should be better.... I think....